not sure which space to take. both have their ups and downs. for some reason i can't take a step back and be objective about the decision. i need some guidance. i need support. i rarely need these things and am terrible at asking. because it's about me, it makes me feel selfish. it feels uncomfortable. like i've put my shoes on the wrong feet. i need to figure this out, and fast.

there are more important things to give my attention to that aren't about me. i am good at that.